last night I...

.....I wept to sleep in the middle of the night again.

By shedding tears, its my way of releasing my emotional stress.

Mum woke me up asking where is Silver. She actually went out quietly without us knowing. I was very upset by her action. During our dinner and while waiting for bus home, I explained to them why we disagreed with what they had done and gave them my advice. And the next thing i knew, she went out again. This time, without us knowing. I felt very angry and upset. I felt so hurt. I don't understand why are they doing this. Is my love not enough for them or they are not convinced of what i had say. In the end, I called and told her, from now onwards, I'm not going to care about her life and i just hanged up the phone. I really feel helpless...and am giving up on them. But i guess, at the end of day, I would still shower them with care and concern. They are my only sistas. But I really hope one day they would understand my intentions and concern for them. Next, I was worried about Xiang's trust on me. Am not sure how to convince him. I just feel helpless again.

So, I wept.....just wept quietly to sleep. Now I have a splitting headache. Not sure if I can continue my lesson later in the evening. See how it goes then.