almost giving up

After a week of consideration, I thought I should had a good chat with my man about us...to continue or not...our 4 years plus of good and bad times...

On saturday, we met up after his work. Well, we went lunchie at Scotts foodcourt and shopping after that. Then, I thought, even if we were to end our relationship, I would want to end it sweetly. We headed home around 4 plus.

While I was ironing his shirts, we started to share our views about us. I told him that perhaps a break up might be good for both of us. He could find somebody much better than me...someone sweet, lovely, independent, homely, good figure, maybe in short, his dream ger or wife. I felt that I'm so far from being his dream ger. Although he is willing to wait and see some changes in me. But I was just afraid to disappoint him. Moreover, he did mention that he is unsure of his love for me. So why continue? I told him to find another better gal rather than to wait for a new ME.

I don't like it when my man says ' when the time comes for us to break up, we just have to break up.' I was thinking, why waste our time? Dragging this relationship could bring either one of us more hurt and longer time to pick up the shattered pieces and mend our broken heart. Either we end it or we walk down the aisle...we are not young anymore....:(

I guess its normal for any gals to walk through the same heart wrenching pain. Like the old saying goes...time heal all wounds....

So, what happen to us in the end.......to be continued.......